It Is Finished…

I hate to quote the words of my dying Savior while he hung on a cross, but I do believe he said it best. It is finished.

Some of you may already know the journey which I have been on for the last five and a half years. The journey of my weight loss, and rebirth as a Phoenix. The journey has not been easy and many times over the past years I have failed miserably and hung my head in shame at some of my pathetic moments…Nutella, Jif and Honey Maid memories are flooding back to me from a few weekends ago...but I have also had many successes in my journey in learning that I am worth every single effort, penny and sacrifice which I have made to get to this point. What you may not know is that I applied for plastic surgery, more specifically, a body lift back in July. I was denied under my health insurance.

Apparently, losing, 200 pounds without surgery is simply not reason enough to remove over 8 pounds plus countless amounts of excess skin which are hiding under my clothing, but I so discretely camouflage under Spanx and body sheaths. Extremely uncomfortable to live life everyday in, but I do because otherwise, clothes lay extremely odd on me and then people think I have this massive muffin top. That is not a muffin top, it is simply an empty bakery display which I ate five years ago and then had the gall to leave at Bally Total Fitness and Weight Watchers. Just ignore the case and keep moving kids. After being told that I had not lost enough weight and that I should lose more, I did. My appeal had to be submitted today. Due to a minor state of emergency with a storm front, abdominal snow machines and the National Guard being called out, I was delayed slightly, but I did manage to get my entire contents in the mail to my insurance agency stating my case…that I have made changes in my life to be more healthy and live actively, in addition to being a true success at weight-loss. I have kept it off, no reoccurring yo-yo diets for me, just living healthy and making fabulous choices. I will hear back within the month to find out if my case was approved.

The Happiness Project also helped me this week begin looking actively for a new church home. I looked at ICCC and really enjoyed the message, not sure if it is the place for me, but I could really relate to the sermon and it caused me to take a deep look at my own heart and consider what it is that I am doing for Christ and not just for myself. I looked into joining a Bible Study by Beth Moore but the class meets on nights when I have ONEA in addition to Master's Classes. I am really quite sad about it. I have been wanting for some time to get back into a group that will be taking my spiritual walk to a deeper level but works with my crazy time schedule due to being a full time student plus full time teacher. The good news is that I live by grace and not the law so God understands my heart on the issue of loving and seeking Him.

It was a big week. I got more rest as per the Happiness Project, finished my Master's Homework, saw two movies…one with Betsy (No Strings Attached) and one with Murphy (The King's Speech). Ate carrot cake pancake for breakfast…yes, First Watch makes them, and I did take Zumba to counteract the naughtiness…ohhh…sweet carrot flakes, candied pecans and sugar-free syrup…being a snow bunny is worth it. Organized the office and I am ready to go to H & R Block now on Saturday and get my taxes done; got my mother's 60^th birthday present, gym bag with personalized water bottle and make-up bag plus a DVD, and all my grading for conferences complete for next week, I have been a very good girl.